Conversations(Bayan kong Pinas)

Talking to Gang at YM was perfect timing. It's easy to be apathetic these days, and not care because I really can puke at the actions of our government officials. There's a huge part of me that doesn't want to comment about the things that are happening. Ayoko na! I really don't want to care. But damn do I care!

The conversation started out as "worklike" trying to establish linking RockEd with Ehem, etc. But we had fun thinking about what life would be if we simply didn't care; if we just migrate, if we could turn back time.

Kang: alam mo tama ka, maghahanap na lang ako ng mayamang Brit na mapapangasawa at titira na ako sa UK. I'll marry Prince William.

Gang: alam mo, susuportahan kita dyan sa bid mo to marry Prince William. That's the Goal, Go Kang!

Kang: but will i really be able to sleep well at night knowing im ok, im great and all but that hundreds and thousands of my kababayans are living way below poverty line? are dying of hunger and the beasts in our government just keep on getting all the money and resources we have?

Gang:..the temptation to migrate is fantastic...haaaaay Kang...kung kakayanin ko lang, tulad nung sinasabi mo na matulog ng mahimbing sa first world kong kama

Kang: kainis talaga yang mga Pari at Madre na kung ano anong pagmamahal sa bayan ang tinuro satin eh. i swear if magkakaanak man ako, if i do decide that i want kids
kasi now, i don't want kids..i swear di sila mag aaral sa mga Preferential Option for the Poor na yan! no Jesuit schools, no Nuns and Priests...dapat dun sa mga Sakim na school. hehehe

Gang: hahaha. ako, if I could turn back the clock..mag aaral ako sa Arts School
tapos ang iinitindihin ko, purong puro na arts...mag tutula ako tungkol sa mga anino...ganun..
mga ganun ganun lang....hindi ako ma aapekto ng mga taga gobyerno ganun..kasi nakatutok lang ako sa pag likha,ayokong nangengelam na

And our conversation also went to blaming our parents too for teaching us to be good and to care about others and the country; we also talked about wanting to just star in those makeover shows in the states and care only of our looks and the clothes we wear everyday, not if other people have something to eat or that the tax we are paying are being stolen by damn government officials.

We were, in short, dreaming! Nananaginip lang kasi at the end of the day - We cannot be apathetic; because we damn care - we are tired, we are angry, we are exhausted at the sight of mere politicians, not leaders but we still want things to change. We seek for the Truth and we Demand for it!

And in the light of Lozada's coming out and people saying he's a hero - I go back to the idea of EHEMPLO when I was working for Ehem. To tell the truth, to help out the country and bring forth positive change is Everyone's Responsibility. It is not Heroic, what he is doing is Just because he is telling the "truth" (i hope he is) but he's no Hero. But he can be an EHEMPLO. He's not perfect, he's done bad things in the past, but if he wants to change and wants to help bring forth change, then he is being a Good Example.

But seriously, ikaw, ako - Lahat Tayo responsibilidad na maging mabuting tao, na maging ehemplo sa isa't isa. Hindi hinihingiling ang maging perpekto - pero na maging totoo ka, na subukang maging mabuti sa lahat ng gawain, yan ang ang hinihingi sa Tao. Yan ay kung TAO ka. Kasi kung HAYOP ka, di ko yun aasahan sa iyo.

Iniisip ko, at the end of each day, it might be good to ask ourselves -  Paano ba ako naging mabuting tao ngayong araw na ito? Sang bagay ako naging Ehemplo sa iba? Sang bagay ako dapat magbago?

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PS - salamat sa pag-uusap sa Gang, I know you were asking for opinion and help when you first talked to me sa YM, but I actually needed that conversation. you helped me din.